For as long as I can remember, I've had the desire to help others. Yet I never knew which path I would take, feeling like I didn't fit in any of the related job fields. After several years of struggling to find my way in the conventional stream: finding a career, trying several programs in University, setting off travelling to find myself; life seemingly brought me on a different path of transformation, healing and self-discovery. 

I then came to the realization that the first step in helping others could be to simply share these experiences to the world!

 

So here I am :) 

 

A major car accident in 2012 made my life take a drastic 180 degree turn.  I unknowingly embarked on a path that would shake me to my core and reconnect me to my True self, which had been long lost. 

 

Prior to that event, my life looked Perfect, I ''had it all'': Looks, youth, material goods, fancy partying, travelling, buzzing social life.Yet on the inside, I was in a living nightmare. Haunted by guilt and self-hate. Disconnected. Desensitized. Highjacked by anxiety, depression and loneliness. All shamelessly covered by what society would protray as ''happiness'', and drowned in a whirlwind of ways to not feel that pain of disconnection. 

 

As a child I was very sensitive, shy and vulnerable. But since my teenage years I meticulously constructed a facade to protect myself, which ended up pulling me further and further away from my true nature, to the point where I had no clue who I was. I was a lost soul with an armor built around my heart; utterly out of reach. 

 

This journey in the past couple of years required me to unroot pretty much my whole identity. Letting go of old habits, toxic environments, removing my image, ending relationships. Undergoing therapies, spiritual modalities, yoga and meditation, coaches, psychics, self-help books galore... At the end of that seemingly endless process, I was finally faced with myself at my deepest core; broken and wounded. And I slowly began picking up the broken pieces to turn those wounds into Wings! 

 

I now feel ready to reveal myself as I truly am, openly and unapologetically. Through this blog my hope is to reach out and shed light to the ones out there still struggling, stuck on the other side feeling like they can't cross over. I'm the living proof that it is indeed possible. :) 

 

I hope you come along with me as I expose the good, the bad and the ulgly with a true open heart <3

 

E-Mail: mariane.bartlett@hotmail.com