Farewells

When we let eachother go,

My whole Universe shattered to the ground.

I’ve never experienced such a profound pain,

A grief so deep;

My heart ripped out of my chest.

Scatted into a million pieces

Each one of them mourning the loss,

Begging for the love,

Silently seeking for a sign,

a reassurance,

That I will be okay,

That I need not fear.

Yet nothing.

No compass, no direction.

Just an eruption of emotions

Soaring from the depths of my Being

My whole body trembled like a leaf,

I shattered to the ground,

Wounded and afraid;

Yet with an underlying strength and presence

I couldn't comprehend.

Unsure what will become of me,

Unsure this is the right way,

With no certainty I will come out alive,

Simply diving in head first,

With a leap of faith

My soul aches,

My heart bleeds

My world crumbles at my feet

At the dawn of this new beginning, this new life

I’m shedding every layer of my old cocoon

Surfacing my old wounds

Patiently and lovingly allowing those parts of me

I had trapped into the depths of my soul,

To resurface

To surrender,

You came into my life not as a savior,

But as a soulmate

Extending your hand,

Offering a seat,

To take on this journey together.

You quickly became my most cherished human in the world,

As if we had known eachother forever.

A beam of light in my darkest hours,

A ray of hope in the depths of my despair,

Holding the keys to my tightly closed doors.

Within your hands

were the key to my heart,

And the key to my own light.

Together, we shattered the armours I had built around my heart,

One by one,

We tore them down.

Creating an opening,

a new beginning.

Reminding me that by allowing pain,

I allowed Love.

Together, everything was possible.

We were invincible;

We elevated eachother to new heights,

Our souls had a divine plan,

a higher agreement,

To softly set us both free.

You have transformed me in ways I never knew possible

Shattered my defense mechanisms to the ground;

And allowed a new, soft, gentle version of me,

Unimposingly arise.

You offered me a free ride.

From broken to whole

From harsh, and cold

to soft and vulnerable.

From fearful to brave,

From closed off to wide open ;

Simply by being you,

And allowing me to be me.

Loving all of me

With all of my virtues,

All of my scars;

For the first time in my life,

I felt accepted entirely,

For what was within me;

not what I chose to expose.

You saw through every layer,

through every mechanism,

straight to the light underneath

I trusted you with every cell in my body.

I knew I could finally let go fully,

And dive into this experience,

Open heartedly.

You showed me a love so pure,

A way so gentle,

My wounded heart couldn’t resist the healing power

U held within your hands

You made me believe again,

Love again

Trust again

In myself,

In men,

In life itself.

I believe in us more than anything in this world.

And that will never change.

Whether our mission ends today after this 6 month journey,

Or it has further secret arrangements,

The place you hold in my heart is sacred.

It can never be replaced.

I will forever keep within me your strength,

Your un-shattering belief in me,

Your inspiring words of wisdom,

and most of all,

Your loving presence

Our souls have a history,

Have clearly collaborated before;

Have had higher agreements

On many occasions.

To help us soar,

To elevate us to our highest potential

And to set us both Free!

They have created a bond so strong,

A mutual love so deep,

Our human limited minds cannot begin to comprehend;

Expanding far beyond its spectrum.

So it attached, it clinged.

It held on for dear life,

Yet our Soul’s only desire

is our highest freedom

Our purest joy,

For our lights to shine through us,

And create the change we are here to make !

If letting go of you is the only way to set us both free,

Then we will have completed our mission.

I know I will see you again,

Whether in this life or the next,

I can only hope to be graced with the gift of your presence,

Of your shining light.

But until then, I can only offer you this last gift,

Of opening the door and letting you fly!

However holding on to that promise,

That we will thrive and become

the best versions of ourselves,

To honor our purpose,

to serve this world.

That one, I will never let go of <3

I know from the depths of my sorrow today,

I will rise to my highest glory!

You gave me the key to my power,

I now give you the key to your heart

It is free to embrace life,

Be loved,

Let it all in,

Receive all the love you have withheld yourself from,

As God knows you deserve more love than this world has to offer !

I love you more than you can ever know my Munchkin,

my angel <3

And words can never express the amount of gratitude I feel

To have had such a magical encounter,

Experienced such a profound connection,

With the most beautiful and powerful Soul I know.

Thank you for opening your heart ,

Letting me into your fascinating world,

Showing me endless possibilities.

Thank you for this amazing, intensive,

Miraculous journey by your side.

Even if 'oh so short,

I wouldn’t change it for the world.

I wish I could keep you by my side forever,

That our journey would never end,

Always elevating us to new heights!

But apparently our mission this time is different,

And I choose our freedom and happiness,

I choose to set us free!

I will cherish every moment spent with you,

And treasure our bond,

Until my very last breath.

<3